This is why you should always trust your gut and become your strongest advocate when it comes to your health care. I’m sharing what happened to me when I failed to listen to my instincts, along with revealing basal cell carcinoma surgery pictures. My hope is that my journey will empower you to demand answers and prevent a similar experience.
For two years, the words for this article remained unwritten, trapped by the daunting memories of a frightening period in my life. The vivid recollection of my basal cell carcinoma surgery and the aftermath made it difficult to revisit. However, I’ve found the strength to share my story now, originally published in October 2018, as a testament to resilience and a critical lesson in personal health advocacy.
The Unmistakable Whisper: Why Trusting Your Gut Matters
If the sight of medical imagery makes you uncomfortable, you might have already clicked away. But if you’re still here, I’m grateful you’ve chosen to join me on this journey. My decision to share this deeply personal experience stems from a profound realization: from the moment I first felt an unusual, persistent scab on my scalp, I knew I had a story to tell. After enduring the emotional and physical ordeal of surgery, the conviction solidified – this journey needed to be shared, not just for my own healing, but to potentially spare others from similar trials.
It all began innocently enough in mid-2014. I discovered a scaly bump on the top of my head. Initially, like many of us, I dismissed it, assuming it would simply disappear on its own. It’s easy to rationalize away minor health anomalies, especially when life is busy. But this particular spot lingered, a subtle yet persistent presence that began to chip away at my peace of mind.
After six months, with no sign of improvement, I finally made an appointment with my dermatologist. It’s important to preface this by saying I am exceptionally diligent about regular skin checks. My family history is rife with skin cancer, and I’ve had numerous moles removed myself, many of which were precancerous. Prevention and early detection have always been cornerstone principles in my approach to health. So, when my dermatologist confidently diagnosed it as “just dermatitis” and prescribed a generic liquid, I wanted to believe him. For a few months, the spot seemed to improve, offering a false sense of security. But eventually, despite consistent application, the scabby area stubbornly returned, refusing to vanish.
This was the critical juncture where I ignored my gut, that insistent inner voice that told me something wasn’t right. I fell into the trap of self-doubt and deference to authority:
- I reasoned, “He must be right; he’s an expert, and I’m not.”
- I consciously pushed aside my instincts, my intuition, which screamed that this was more than just dermatitis.
- I failed to advocate for further testing, perhaps because a part of me didn’t want my gut to be right – I feared what a definitive diagnosis might reveal. Yet, as time would prove, my gut was unequivocally correct.
Another six months passed, and the persistent spot continued to nag at me. Despite my earlier dismissal of my own instincts, the unease wouldn’t dissipate. I decided to seek another opinion, this time consulting my regular family doctor. To my dismay, I received the exact same diagnosis: “it must just be dermatitis.” Once again, my gut loudly protested, telling me this wasn’t the full picture. However, the desire for a simple, benign explanation was powerful. I think I simply didn’t want to admit the possibility of something more serious, so I clung to the hope that my gut was wrong and continued on for another six months, living with a growing sense of apprehension.
Empowering Yourself: The Invaluable Lesson of Trusting Your Gut
I continued to wait, believing a diagnosis I knew deep down to be false, for another year. It’s rare that my intuition leads me astray, and this prolonged period of self-doubt and delayed action was incredibly taxing. Finally, fed up with the uncertainty and the persistent feeling that I was being dismissed, I returned to the first dermatologist, reiterating with renewed conviction that something was profoundly wrong. This time, there was no room for doubt or second-guessing my inner voice.
Once again, now two years after my initial concern, he repeated the same dismissive words: “it must just be dermatitis.” But this time, something shifted within me. I trusted my gut implicitly, and I refused to leave his office until I received a concrete plan for an actual diagnosis. The days of passively accepting a benign explanation were over. I needed answers, not assumptions.
Lying on the examination table, preparing for a punch biopsy on my scalp, I understood the implications. I knew this procedure would leave an open wound that would take time to heal. Yet, I was ready – ready to prove myself right, or, in a flicker of hope, prove him right. I desperately wished for the latter, for the reassurance that it was indeed “just dermatitis.”
- Immediately after he extracted the small piece of skin and lifted it, his demeanor changed. His words, “oh… you’re going to have to have the surgeon look at this,” confirmed my deepest fears.
- My gut was right. It was likely what I had silently suspected, the very thing I had hoped for two agonizing years was wrong. The sense of validation was cold comfort against the dawning reality of a serious health issue.
My Mohs Surgery Experience: A Deep Dive into Basal Cell Carcinoma Treatment
The next three months were an agonizing wait for a surgery date – that summer truly felt like hell. I was utterly unprepared for the unknown, with no clear idea of how invasive or straightforward the removal of the basal cell carcinoma spot on my scalp would be. Basal cell carcinoma (BCC) is the most common type of skin cancer, often appearing as a persistent sore, a red patch, or a shiny bump. While it rarely spreads to other parts of the body, it can be locally destructive if not treated, making early and complete removal crucial.
As the surgical team began to shave a significant portion of my hair, a wave of dread washed over me. I instinctively knew this procedure would be far more extensive than I had dared to imagine, and unfortunately, my premonition was correct. I was scheduled for Mohs micrographic surgery, a highly specialized procedure known for its precision in treating skin cancer, especially on cosmetically sensitive areas like the face and scalp. During Mohs, the surgeon removes cancer in thin layers, examining each layer under a microscope immediately to ensure all cancerous cells are gone while preserving as much healthy tissue as possible.
The process unfolded with a painstaking precision that felt both reassuring and terrifying. They would meticulously cut out a layer of the affected tissue, bandage me up, and then send me into a waiting room filled with other skin cancer patients. This waiting period, often stretching for an hour or more, was excruciating. Each minute was filled with the anxious hope that the pathology results would come back clear, signifying they had “gotten it all.” But that day, they hadn’t.
Back into the chair I went, prepared for another round of basal cell cancer Mohs surgery. As some of the initial anesthesia began to wear off, the surgeon had to administer more, sticking a needle into the already large, open wound on my scalp to numb a wider area for further excision. It was at this moment that I completely broke down. I started to sob uncontrollably, the kind of ugly cry where you are utterly overwhelmed by fear and sadness. It was a raw, primal expression of terror that even seemed to startle the doctor slightly.
There I was, a 41-year-old woman, weeping like a child in a doctor’s office, with an open wound on my head the size of a golf ball, extending all the way down to my skull. The surgeon, unsure if I was in pain or just emotionally distraught, paused. I had to explain the depth of my fear: my beloved aunt had battled skin cancer years prior. She was told it had been successfully removed and she was in the clear. However, a few years later, she became horrifically ill. They discovered the cancer hadn’t been fully eradicated, and it had spread aggressively. Within six months, she passed away, also in her mid-40s – just like me. The thought of this devastating fate befalling me, after such a prolonged period of misdiagnosis, was unbearable.
Thankfully, after that intensely emotional second round of tissue removal and subsequent pathology analysis, I was informed that the margins were clear. The relief was immense. She then carefully stitched me up, bringing an end to the active surgical phase.
The journey to full recovery was a long and arduous one, taking a good year for complete healing. For approximately six months, I had to wear headbands constantly to cover the visible open wound, which required diligent packing with salve to keep it moist and facilitate proper healing. It was a challenging location for a wound, both physically and socially. But through it all, I endeavored to focus on the positive aspects and the invaluable lessons I had learned.
What I can share with others from this harrowing experience, in the hope that what I endured may not have to happen to you or your loved ones:
- Always trust your gut when you feel something just isn’t right with your health. This inner voice is often your body’s way of signaling a problem. Don’t dismiss it.
- Don’t procrastinate: As soon as you suspect something might be wrong, get it looked at. Delays can lead to more complex and invasive treatments, as was the case for me. Early detection is paramount for most health conditions, especially skin cancer.
- Seek multiple opinions: Don’t hesitate to visit an array of different doctors or specialists to gather diverse perspectives and ensure a thorough evaluation. A fresh pair of eyes can make all the difference.
- Demand specific tests: Empower yourself to request tests that may rule out or confirm what you suspect could be the problem. Had I pushed for a biopsy much earlier in the process, I strongly believe my surgery and recovery would have been significantly less traumatic and prolonged.
Has this experience changed me? Most definitely! I used to consider myself a “glass half empty” kind of person, prone to negative thinking. While those days aren’t entirely eradicated, they are far less frequent and intense than before. This ordeal offered a profound shift in perspective, fostering a deeper appreciation for life and resilience.
Does it suck that I have a bald spot on the top of my head that will never grow hair again? Yes, it does. It’s a permanent reminder. But the way I look at it now is, “it could have been far worse.” As long as I don’t have to go through that intense experience again, I am perfectly content with this minor physical imperfection. It’s a small price to pay for my health and continued life.
Why am I sharing this photo? This particular picture was taken just two and a half months after my surgery, and my head was still far from fully healed. I seriously considered opting out of our family photos that year, feeling self-conscious about my appearance. However, I pushed past that hesitation and decided to participate, and I’m so incredibly glad I did. It’s a powerful image for me, representing resilience and embracing life despite challenges.
I later elaborated on my thoughts in another article about why you should stop making excuses and get in your family photos. If I could overcome the emotional and physical challenges of this entire ordeal and even creatively hide my bandage with a bobby pin to be in those pictures, you truly have no reason not to capture those precious family moments.
I share my story with you not just for catharsis, but for several crucial reasons:
- It has been incredibly therapeutic for me to write and journal this experience, processing the trauma and finding closure.
- I feel a profound duty to share what I went through. My deepest hope is that you will internalize the importance of becoming your own fierce advocate when it comes to your health. Remember, prevention and early action are absolutely key.
- You, like many, may feel that “it won’t happen to me.” The stark reality is that sometimes, it does happen, and being prepared and proactive can make all the difference.
- It’s perfectly okay to be the mom under the hat, or to face any physical changes with grace. True beauty emanates from within, from your strength, your spirit, and your resilience.
Trust. Your. Gut. Period. It could save your life.
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